Mygosh! It's been a long time i havent updated anything here eh? Yeayea those school works, projects, exams, yadayadayada have made me quite a bit, retarded. yeah. like there's not even just one day without homework, or test, and ive been haunted by these projects, film project, book project, novelet project, grrrr. and in a week im gonna have final exams! Plus afterschool lesson, monday, wednesday, 2 on thursday, and SUNDAY. hm. what a 12graders polemic. wow. TIME FLIES. fuckin fast. and i need a holidaaaaaaaaaay! Feels like it was just yesterday we stepped to the 12thgrade, but it turned out that it's been almost 6months. and in no time we're gonna have university entrance tests, final examination, and in eine Augenblick will be entering the gates of universities! (hopefully. Amen!) i feel like riding on a rollercoaster. fast and furious.
well anyway, what have been happening to me lately? too much i guess. and too overwhelming. but i guess im just gonna tell you the whole big picture. my life, has been in the zero point lately i guess. ZERO POINT. yeah. like you dont feel happy in whatever you do? i got 100 in english or german or 90 for math or wtv, i go out and have fun with my friends, i make my self busy with this and that but somehow i still feel thoughts tangling in my mind. i really dont know whats happening on me -__- hilfe mir bitte!!!
and oh, those feelings. to hell with it. but fuck, i cant. i know its been so long. but, i just cant. I wanna ask God to give me amnesia, but oh well:'( it keep on flying across my mind, and even haunting me down to my dream. i admit that, what ive been doing is just running away from the truth. but how can i face the truth if it is just so painful? knowing that those days have gone by, i have nothing to do with it anymore. all i gotta do is to put everything about it aside. but now all i have left is this regret. and this regret i have is haunting me down, swallowing me, sinking me deep down to the bottom. i know, emo -.-. but that's what i feel, so fuck you who says that im emo. wtv you say wont make any difference anyway. well these thoughts are welling up inside me, sooner or later, im gonna puke. i guess amnesia can help me. I wish by God you'd stay out of my mind. my life. my dream. Now that youve got your life back, i hope you enjoy it.
in the other hand............................. i've got my life back. ( well, a bit.) hahaha. dont worry, i still can find cheers in my friends' laughter, smile, and stupidities.
i guess that's all i can say,
Tami.
11.15.2009
10.27.2009
1. Who was your last text from?
2. Where was your default picture taken?
3. Whats your middle name?
4. Your current relationship status?
Rama
2. Where was your default picture taken?
Aga's birthday partay, Just Steak Mahakam
3. Whats your middle name?
Don't have any
4. Your current relationship status?
Single lady hahaha
5. Does your crush like you back?
and who's my crush?
6. What is your current mood?
30% sick sick sick
7. What did you do after school yesterday?
trapped at school cause of the storm then after school lesson
8. What color shirt are you wearing?
blue
9. Who's your crush?
see number 510. If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
yeah. to that time when i should have reply those sms.
12. Ever had a near death experience?
YEAH ONCE. seru nyet!
13. Something you do a lot?
fart. online.
15. Who can you tell anything to?
.......................
16. Name someone who has the same birthday as you.
err i dont know.
17. When was the last time you cried?
a month a go i guess
18. What's the last thing you ate?
bread
19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
to alter time!
20. What's the first thing you notice about a guy/girl?
look? HAHA
21. What do you usually order from starbucks?
Vanilla Frappe with extra caramelle:)
22. What's your biggest secret?
dang you want me to spill it out here dumbass?
23. Favorite color?
white
24. What song has a special meaning for you?
Go On - Gavin Mikhail
25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv show?
Spoengebob squarepants
Spoengebob squarepants
26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
nothing
28. What's your favorite smell?
Honeydew
29. Describe your life in one word; what would it be?
Life is just a play:s
30. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
nope
31. Why did your last relationship fail?
my bad hahaha32. What are you thinking about right now?
(censored)
33. What should you be doing?
at school
34. Did someone make you upset/angry today? and who?
nope.
35. What are you listening to?
Enigma - Sadness
36. Do you like working in the yard?
nope
37. If you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
Trump
38. Do you act differently around the person you like?
guess so
39. What is your natural hair color?
brunette/brown
40. Who was the last person to make you cry?
tssssssssss -.-
10.26.2009
Gary Come Home
Noon guys,
I didnt go to school today, im effin sick-.- this flu is killin me! and you know what ive peed like 10times in the last 5 hours! Geez. Hopefully i can get better before friday or ill miss Soulnation!
Anyhow, today i just stayed in my mom's room and watched tv. Its been a long time since the last time i watched Spongebob Squarepants, and today's episode was when Gary left Spongebob cause he neglected him. But then Spongebob really regretted it and was looking everywhere for Gary. Here's the music video:
I didnt go to school today, im effin sick-.- this flu is killin me! and you know what ive peed like 10times in the last 5 hours! Geez. Hopefully i can get better before friday or ill miss Soulnation!
Anyhow, today i just stayed in my mom's room and watched tv. Its been a long time since the last time i watched Spongebob Squarepants, and today's episode was when Gary left Spongebob cause he neglected him. But then Spongebob really regretted it and was looking everywhere for Gary. Here's the music video:
Gary now i know i was wrong i messed up and now your gone,
Gary I'm sorry i neglected you, oh i never expected you to runaway
and leave me feeling this empty
your meow right now would sound like music to me.
Please come home 'cause i miss you Gary.
Gary come home
Gary come home
Gary come home
Gary cant you see i was blind ill do anything to change your mind!
More than a pet youre my best friend to cool to forget, comeback
cause we are family and forgive me for making you wanna roam,
and now my heart is beating like the saddest metronome
Some where i hope youre reading my latest three word poem
Gary come home!
Gary come home!
10.25.2009
River Flows in You Cover
Hey guys, this is me playin the piano of River Flows in You by Yiruma. Sorry made some little mistakes:p but enjoy!
10.24.2009
Taman Lawang
Morning gays!
FOSIL sukses! Yeah tiketnya sold out padahal baru berjalan 1 jam huahahaha keren. ampe bikin tiket tambahan dan akhir2nya jebol. keren. Pas Barry Likumahuwa juga audiencenya kooperatif banget, asik abis nyanyi Indonesia Pusaka ato Gebyar-Gebyar ye? Lupa gue huahaha. Waktu Jacket Potato juga. Trus pas gue lagi di lorong gitu kan papasan sm Barry abis manggung, dianya bilang gitu, "Keren banget acaranya!" gue senyam senyum kembang kempis hahaha.
Okay anyway,
yaya kalian tahu sanur kan, mau semalem acara selese jam berape juga besoknya (Sabtu) tetep masuk sekolah. GA LIBUR. gue dengan segenap tenaga, dan berasa kaki udah RATA (Pegel banget kaki gue GILAA), pun terseok-seok masuk sekolah! Untung saja kami agak pintar mengelabui guru religiusitas kami yang agak suka curcol, jadi yaudah kita nanya-nanya tentang dulu dia pacaran berapa lama awet ato gaa gitugitu lah. ujung-ujungnya dia malah curcol pacaran 10tahun sama suaminya bla3. hahaha sampai akirnya bel pun berbunyi. senangnya.
Lalu kedua, pelajaran creative writing. Haha gampanglah ini. Toh ujung-ujungnya kita malah gosipin salah satu guru tukang bokis gitu di sekolah. Trus curcol ttg raditya dika juga tuh guru creatif writing gue huahaha. senangnya.
Lalu ketiga, gamelan bali. bekas memar seminggu yg lalu karena bermain kendang pun kembali terbuka. Malah lebih parah karena kali ini tangan gue yg kiri pake menepuk kendang. jadi selamat ya tam jari mu biru biru sekarang huahahaha. tapi gpp ah keren.
ok selanjutnya gue pulang. malam minggu. biasanya gue udah ada acara, ato at least rencana ato bahkan tujuan doang untuk malam itu. tapi kemarin tidak biasanya. got no plan at all huh. Ditelfon Aceh untuk nonton dia manggung di Ricci, Edward juga nyuruh kesana, tapi yah apadaya gue gatau kesananya gimana, biasanya ama Pm Cimbon. Pm ke Bandung. Rencana pertama gagal. Rencana ke dua, Musa mengajak gue untuk ikut ke ultah temennya di Menteng. Yah gimane gue kesananya lagi lagi -.- dia sendiri aja nebeng temennya karena mobilnya speedometernya rusak entar takut tiba2 mogok dijalan soalnya gatau kalo bensinnya udah abis huahaha.
Alas. oh Alas. Wanita kesepian ini pun sendiri di malam minggu bersama komputernya. Gue udah berniat untuk nonton DVD Once, eh pas gue masukin ke dvd player gamau ngebaca. kampret. Gue punmengajak ayah gue untuk hunting dvd di itc. katanya oke.
Gue pun ol bentar. Waktu menunjukan pukul 7 malam dan gue belom ada rencana juga. Tiba2 Tama, tetangga gue, nanya gue dimana, gue bilang dirumah. Dia juga dirumah. Kami bosan. Pertama dia mengajak ke fx fotoin temennya manggung. tapi gue lg males jalan gaul gitu. hidup sedang membosankan. dan gue butuh tantangan. yaudah gue tantang tama untuk ke TL. Haha TL itu loh Taman Lawang, sarangnya banci-banci paling kece seantero jakarta. Tama pun menerima tantangan gue yeaaah!!!
setelah itu Tama pun langsung menjemput gue. Yah ga pake buluk!!! Buluk tuh starlet merahnya yang (emang) buluk dan bunyinya heboh. Heboh banget! Tapi seru nyet pake itu haha. Sayangnya kali ini dia bawa CR-V yg kinclong gitu, gaya benerrr.
Emak gue nitip minta beliin bebek bengil. So yauda kite ke Tosari beli bebek dulu. Trus bistu makan ayam kuluyuk bistu hunting foto ke bunderan HI. Namun ketika gue lg diatas jembatan ngambil foto, tiba2
gue: lo ngerasa bergetar ga sih?
Tama: iya tam... daritadi
gue: (kembali memoto)
---bergetar kembali----
gue: tuh kan! getar lagi! ngerasa ga sih lo?
tama: iya tam daritadi daah
gue: gempa bukan sih?
tama: nah makannnya gue takutnya itu
gue: (kembali moto seakan ga peduli)
---tiba2 sepasang homo lewat-----
homo2: katanya gempanya 8,2 SR ya? bla3...........
*gue dan tama bertatap2an*
Anjir malah ngomongin gempa. disaat yang tak tepat, yaitu saat gue ngerasa inijembatan tempat kaki gue menapak sedang bergetar-getar. ANEHNYA GA ADA YG PANIK!!! yaude gue stay cool juga huahaha. ngomong2 ternyata emg bener, kemaren ada gempa di maluku kan.
nih beberapa hasil jepretan gue, biasa banget! ga bawa tripod sih huh. gue gerak dikit lgs blurred.
selanjutnya gue ama Tama lewatin daerah TL. Baru pas belok kiri BANCINYA LAGI RAME NYEET. oke ini malam, jam 11, dan malam minggu. kombinasi yang kurang enak. SANGAT GA ENAK. kenapa? karena mobil gue hampir dicegat sama BANCI YANG MENARIK KERAH BAJUNYA KEBAWAH SEHINGGA BUAH DADANYA KEMANA-MANAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. HOEK HOEK HOEK. dan itu terlihat sangat amat GA ALAMI. IH SEREM BGT. mana bawa kecrekan gitu sambil ngamen, trus tetenya krompyang krompyang KEMANE MANE HUAHAHAHHHA. panik abis gue lgs nyuruh tama ngebut! daripada dicegat! mati pingsan gue di cegat. masalahnya mobil depan gue dicegat................... kasihan. eh tp ada yg cantik bgt aja loh bancinya hahahahaha keren. trus pas udah lewat
tama: tam lo tadi liat bawahnya?
gue: enggak, gue cukup liat atasnya ga berani liat lebih lanjut. lo liat?
tama: liat gue!! udah jadi cewe!!
gue: SUMPAHLO? ANJING NAJIS
tama: IYE UDAH BENTUK CEWE!!! GELI GUE JUGA
gue: emang dibuka-buka?
tama: IYA DIBUKA BUKA TADIII LO GA LIAT?
gue: GA BERANI GUE LIAT HOEK NAJIS
astaga jadi tuh banci atas bawah dibuka. SEREM BANGET. GELI GUA.
udah ah segini aja ok
stay cool
TAMI
FOSIL sukses! Yeah tiketnya sold out padahal baru berjalan 1 jam huahahaha keren. ampe bikin tiket tambahan dan akhir2nya jebol. keren. Pas Barry Likumahuwa juga audiencenya kooperatif banget, asik abis nyanyi Indonesia Pusaka ato Gebyar-Gebyar ye? Lupa gue huahaha. Waktu Jacket Potato juga. Trus pas gue lagi di lorong gitu kan papasan sm Barry abis manggung, dianya bilang gitu, "Keren banget acaranya!" gue senyam senyum kembang kempis hahaha.
Okay anyway,
yaya kalian tahu sanur kan, mau semalem acara selese jam berape juga besoknya (Sabtu) tetep masuk sekolah. GA LIBUR. gue dengan segenap tenaga, dan berasa kaki udah RATA (Pegel banget kaki gue GILAA), pun terseok-seok masuk sekolah! Untung saja kami agak pintar mengelabui guru religiusitas kami yang agak suka curcol, jadi yaudah kita nanya-nanya tentang dulu dia pacaran berapa lama awet ato gaa gitugitu lah. ujung-ujungnya dia malah curcol pacaran 10tahun sama suaminya bla3. hahaha sampai akirnya bel pun berbunyi. senangnya.
Lalu kedua, pelajaran creative writing. Haha gampanglah ini. Toh ujung-ujungnya kita malah gosipin salah satu guru tukang bokis gitu di sekolah. Trus curcol ttg raditya dika juga tuh guru creatif writing gue huahaha. senangnya.
Lalu ketiga, gamelan bali. bekas memar seminggu yg lalu karena bermain kendang pun kembali terbuka. Malah lebih parah karena kali ini tangan gue yg kiri pake menepuk kendang. jadi selamat ya tam jari mu biru biru sekarang huahahaha. tapi gpp ah keren.
ok selanjutnya gue pulang. malam minggu. biasanya gue udah ada acara, ato at least rencana ato bahkan tujuan doang untuk malam itu. tapi kemarin tidak biasanya. got no plan at all huh. Ditelfon Aceh untuk nonton dia manggung di Ricci, Edward juga nyuruh kesana, tapi yah apadaya gue gatau kesananya gimana, biasanya ama Pm Cimbon. Pm ke Bandung. Rencana pertama gagal. Rencana ke dua, Musa mengajak gue untuk ikut ke ultah temennya di Menteng. Yah gimane gue kesananya lagi lagi -.- dia sendiri aja nebeng temennya karena mobilnya speedometernya rusak entar takut tiba2 mogok dijalan soalnya gatau kalo bensinnya udah abis huahaha.
Alas. oh Alas. Wanita kesepian ini pun sendiri di malam minggu bersama komputernya. Gue udah berniat untuk nonton DVD Once, eh pas gue masukin ke dvd player gamau ngebaca. kampret. Gue punmengajak ayah gue untuk hunting dvd di itc. katanya oke.
Gue pun ol bentar. Waktu menunjukan pukul 7 malam dan gue belom ada rencana juga. Tiba2 Tama, tetangga gue, nanya gue dimana, gue bilang dirumah. Dia juga dirumah. Kami bosan. Pertama dia mengajak ke fx fotoin temennya manggung. tapi gue lg males jalan gaul gitu. hidup sedang membosankan. dan gue butuh tantangan. yaudah gue tantang tama untuk ke TL. Haha TL itu loh Taman Lawang, sarangnya banci-banci paling kece seantero jakarta. Tama pun menerima tantangan gue yeaaah!!!
setelah itu Tama pun langsung menjemput gue. Yah ga pake buluk!!! Buluk tuh starlet merahnya yang (emang) buluk dan bunyinya heboh. Heboh banget! Tapi seru nyet pake itu haha. Sayangnya kali ini dia bawa CR-V yg kinclong gitu, gaya benerrr.
Emak gue nitip minta beliin bebek bengil. So yauda kite ke Tosari beli bebek dulu. Trus bistu makan ayam kuluyuk bistu hunting foto ke bunderan HI. Namun ketika gue lg diatas jembatan ngambil foto, tiba2
gue: lo ngerasa bergetar ga sih?
Tama: iya tam... daritadi
gue: (kembali memoto)
---bergetar kembali----
gue: tuh kan! getar lagi! ngerasa ga sih lo?
tama: iya tam daritadi daah
gue: gempa bukan sih?
tama: nah makannnya gue takutnya itu
gue: (kembali moto seakan ga peduli)
---tiba2 sepasang homo lewat-----
homo2: katanya gempanya 8,2 SR ya? bla3...........
*gue dan tama bertatap2an*
Anjir malah ngomongin gempa. disaat yang tak tepat, yaitu saat gue ngerasa inijembatan tempat kaki gue menapak sedang bergetar-getar. ANEHNYA GA ADA YG PANIK!!! yaude gue stay cool juga huahaha. ngomong2 ternyata emg bener, kemaren ada gempa di maluku kan.
nih beberapa hasil jepretan gue, biasa banget! ga bawa tripod sih huh. gue gerak dikit lgs blurred.
selanjutnya gue ama Tama lewatin daerah TL. Baru pas belok kiri BANCINYA LAGI RAME NYEET. oke ini malam, jam 11, dan malam minggu. kombinasi yang kurang enak. SANGAT GA ENAK. kenapa? karena mobil gue hampir dicegat sama BANCI YANG MENARIK KERAH BAJUNYA KEBAWAH SEHINGGA BUAH DADANYA KEMANA-MANAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. HOEK HOEK HOEK. dan itu terlihat sangat amat GA ALAMI. IH SEREM BGT. mana bawa kecrekan gitu sambil ngamen, trus tetenya krompyang krompyang KEMANE MANE HUAHAHAHHHA. panik abis gue lgs nyuruh tama ngebut! daripada dicegat! mati pingsan gue di cegat. masalahnya mobil depan gue dicegat................... kasihan. eh tp ada yg cantik bgt aja loh bancinya hahahahaha keren. trus pas udah lewat
tama: tam lo tadi liat bawahnya?
gue: enggak, gue cukup liat atasnya ga berani liat lebih lanjut. lo liat?
tama: liat gue!! udah jadi cewe!!
gue: SUMPAHLO? ANJING NAJIS
tama: IYE UDAH BENTUK CEWE!!! GELI GUE JUGA
gue: emang dibuka-buka?
tama: IYA DIBUKA BUKA TADIII LO GA LIAT?
gue: GA BERANI GUE LIAT HOEK NAJIS
astaga jadi tuh banci atas bawah dibuka. SEREM BANGET. GELI GUA.
udah ah segini aja ok
stay cool
TAMI
10.22.2009
Cut Off
Good evening gays,
Phew! What-a-daaaaaaaaay. You know what? I left school at around 6pm rite, cause i thought me and Disti should help the guys to prepare for tmorrow's event, but it turned out they didnt need our help so we just chat around in the middle of the hall, just the two of us. I left school at 6 and went home, but at around 6.15 i went out again to go to the math course class. we finished at around 8 something, went home, tidied my room up. finished all the preparation for the band competition final tomorrow. brushed my bathroom. hanged up all the drenched clothes. yadayadayada and here i am, online, in front of the computer. tired. tired. tired.
well anyway, today is THE DAY WHEN I FINALLY DECIDED TO END THIS NEVERENDING PROBLEM. i've been thinking about the consequences and yeah, i decided to cut off every connection until im done with this. i wont see him anymore, and he cant see me no more. which means i 'memotong tali silaturahmi', but who cares? thats the best way for me to get out this hole. No im not gonna check on him anymore, no im not gonna think about him anymore, and no im not gonna give a damn about him anymore, AND HELL NO im not gonna have feelings left for him. yeah thats what im gonna do. we're gonna live a whole different separrated life. that's the way it should be to end this. PEOPLE, THIS IS GONNA BE MY LAST POSTING ABOUT HIM. TAKE MY WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so bye bye bye bye bye:)
Now! Whats my priority?
Phew! What-a-daaaaaaaaay. You know what? I left school at around 6pm rite, cause i thought me and Disti should help the guys to prepare for tmorrow's event, but it turned out they didnt need our help so we just chat around in the middle of the hall, just the two of us. I left school at 6 and went home, but at around 6.15 i went out again to go to the math course class. we finished at around 8 something, went home, tidied my room up. finished all the preparation for the band competition final tomorrow. brushed my bathroom. hanged up all the drenched clothes. yadayadayada and here i am, online, in front of the computer. tired. tired. tired.
well anyway, today is THE DAY WHEN I FINALLY DECIDED TO END THIS NEVERENDING PROBLEM. i've been thinking about the consequences and yeah, i decided to cut off every connection until im done with this. i wont see him anymore, and he cant see me no more. which means i 'memotong tali silaturahmi', but who cares? thats the best way for me to get out this hole. No im not gonna check on him anymore, no im not gonna think about him anymore, and no im not gonna give a damn about him anymore, AND HELL NO im not gonna have feelings left for him. yeah thats what im gonna do. we're gonna live a whole different separrated life. that's the way it should be to end this. PEOPLE, THIS IS GONNA BE MY LAST POSTING ABOUT HIM. TAKE MY WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so bye bye bye bye bye:)
Now! Whats my priority?
JURUSAN ILMU POLITIK
FAKULTAS ILMU SOSIAL DAN POLITIK
UNIVERSITAS INDONESIA
and tomorrow im gonna meet such an ohmygosh SUPER cute boy:3 wishmeluck! Oh plus!
Malam Puncak FOSIL, besok 5-9pm. w/ RADITYA DIKA, BARRY LIKUMAHUWA, JACKET POTATO, FOOD FESTIVAL +many more! HTM Rp 5ribu +doorprizes!
FAKULTAS ILMU SOSIAL DAN POLITIK
UNIVERSITAS INDONESIA
and tomorrow im gonna meet such an ohmygosh SUPER cute boy:3 wishmeluck! Oh plus!
Come and join the fun!
seeya there!
TAMI
TAMI
10.21.2009
Old Pics to be found!
Hey guys i was just foolin around my old folders in my old hard drive rite and i found these pics! So cool huh? :p My friend Reszki was the one who took those pics, thanks res!
sok misterius
gue juga bingung kenapa harus ada gue merayap di pantat gue sendiri
and this one is my favourite:)
kirain foto-foto gue jaman dulu aib semua, ternyata ada yang kaga aib2 amat hahaha. yaude tidur ah gue
nitey nite!
TAMI
sok misterius
gue juga bingung kenapa harus ada gue merayap di pantat gue sendiri
and this one is my favourite:)kirain foto-foto gue jaman dulu aib semua, ternyata ada yang kaga aib2 amat hahaha. yaude tidur ah gue
nitey nite!
TAMI
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