Being Humane.

"We're all walking around with these glossy eyes. "I'm just tired." we say. But you know what? It's bullshit. Ye, we are tired, but its not all from lack of sleep or works. We are tired of waking up with nothing to look forward to, tired of going to bed exhausted after doing a million things we find no enjoyment in doing it. We are tired of this emptiness that looms over us, even though our days are packed. We are tired of the loneliness that presses down on us even though we are surrounded by dozens of people. SO WHY CANT WE JUST SAY IT?

Humans are so afraid to look into each other's eyes and say, "I am unhappy, I am broken, I am hopeless and weak." We have been accustomed to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with unworthiness, difference with disorder, as if these feelings are contagious, as if doubt is something not to be felt but to feared.

Well, I say screw all of that. Screw forced smiles and polite handshakes and "I AM FINE, THANK YOU"S. Screw the fear of crying in public place, to hell with fake chipper voice. To feel everything and to feel it all openly. WE ARE NOT METALS. WE ARE FLESHES AND BONES. We can be torn into pieces. Our boiled blood flows trough our cold, humid hands. We are complex and beautiful and we should NEVER HIDE OUR HUMAN PARTS."

Maybe, this is why.

9 Deadly Words Used by Women

1. FINE : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
2. FIVE MINUTES : If she is getting dressed, this could mean HALF AN HOUR. Five minutes is only exactly five minutes, when she has just given you the time to watch football match, before helping her doing something.
3. NOTHING : This is the calm before the storm. This means something and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
4. GO AHEAD : This is a DARE, not a permission. DON'T DO IT.
5. LOUD SIGH : This is actually a word, but a non-verbal one which is commonly misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing there and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to number 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
6. THAT'S OKAY : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. Thats okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for you mistake.
7. THANKS : A woman is thankong you, do not question, OR FAINT. Just say "you're welcome". This is true, UNLESS, she says 'thanks a lot.". That is pure sarcasm and she definetly is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say "you're welcome". That will bring you to "whatever."
8. WHATEVER : Is a woman's way of saying F-YOU.
9. DONT WORRY ABOUT IT, I GOT IT : Another very dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in the man asking "What's wrong?" For the woman's response refer to number 3.

Goodluck.
Stay cool,
Tami.

Bintang, I miss you.

    Bintang, how are you doing? Jadi dibawa ke Jerman nggak ya kamu? I hope I'll see you again, someday :-)

This pic is so touching :(

The homeless guy cant even take care of himself, but he opens himself to dog :(

"I hate our generation. Everyone either cares too much or too little. There's so much nonesense and pointless drama. Blame is being thrown around. "I love you" is becoming meaningless as saying "and" or "the". What happened to the world? We got caught up in growing up too fast. We all did."

-just sparkle in the sand

I’m afraid of 13 out of 69 common fears

Cross out the things you’re afraid of and put you’re score at the top.

1. the dark
2. staying single forever
3. being a parent
4. giving birth
5. being myself in front of others
6. open spaces
7. closed spaces
8. heights
9. dogs
10. birds
11. fish
12. spiders
13. flowers or other plants
14. being touched
15. fire
16. deep water
17. snakes
18. silk
19. the ocean
20. failure
21. success
22. thunder/lightning
23. frogs/toads
24. my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
25. boyfriends/girlfriends mom  
26. rats
27. jumping from high places
28. snow
29. rain
30. wind
31. crossing hanging bridges
32. death
33. heaven
34. being robbed
35. falling
36. clowns
37. dolls
38. large crowds of people
39. men
40. women
41. having great responsibilities
42. doctors, including dentists
43. tornadoes
44. hurricanes
45. incurable diseases
46. sharks
47. friday the 13th
48. ghosts
49. poverty
50. halloween
51. school
52. trains
53. odd numbers
54. even numbers
55. being alone
56. becoming blind
57. becoming deaf
58. growing up
59. creepy noises in the night
60. bee stings
61. not accomplishing my dreams/goals
62. needles
63. blood
64. dinosaurs
65. the welcome mat
66. high speed
67. throwing up
68. Falling in love
69. super secrets

If you repost this, it’s been requested that you title it “I’m afraid of _ out of 69 common fears”

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.

If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.

If you get 10-20, you are normal.

If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.

People who don’t have any are liar

Something about my room

Are you happy with your life?

You know somehow sometime in our life we will come to the point where we ask this to ourself, are you happy with your life and how it goes?

Well. Maybe im getting my turn now.

How I come to this question, i dont know. But everytime i wake up in the morning, nothing excites me, everytime i go to campus, nothing interests me, everytime i go back to my flat, i finally come again to this room filled with mess.

I finally realise, when you try to please others, you end up unpleasing yourself. How i've been trying to fulfill people's expectation about me. Me the smart girl, me the politic-minded girl, me who-wants-to-be-journalist, me who likes to read book about war, conflicts, and terrorism, me the critical minded girl, me who makes good writings. Now what i get is me-who-dont-even-know-what-I-want-for-my-self. 

In fact,
I am NOT that smart.
I am NOT a politic minded girl, I am FED UP with it.
I do NOT want to be a journalist. I DONT LIKE WRITING.
I do NOT like reading books about war, conflicts, and terrorism. I'd rather read magazines or novels.
I am NOT critical. I dont even care about issues around me.

Now if you ask me again whether i am happy with my life.

It's kinda hard to decide. I'm standing right in the middle of the line. Why? Well you know you've tried so hard and put so much effort until you have what you're having right now. You've sacrificed a lot to be the person you are right now. But the person you are right now, is just not the person you want to be. Plus, it's even more sad when you know you've had them already, and its kind of pity to let it all go.

Yet people will say that i should be grateful for what I have right now. Like everything i've been through, everything i've had, everything i have achieved, many people in this world simply dont have what I have now, many things that people envy me for. You know what? Fvck with that, i dont want to be grateful! Why should I? You should realise that there are many things in this big big world that people take for granted, which i dont have! So to put it simple, we are equal. Now say it again that I should be grateful?


At least I am still breathing, living my complex life, contently.
Maybe its your time to ask yourself, are you happy with your current life?

Stay cool,
Tami