Being Humane.

"We're all walking around with these glossy eyes. "I'm just tired." we say. But you know what? It's bullshit. Ye, we are tired, but its not all from lack of sleep or works. We are tired of waking up with nothing to look forward to, tired of going to bed exhausted after doing a million things we find no enjoyment in doing it. We are tired of this emptiness that looms over us, even though our days are packed. We are tired of the loneliness that presses down on us even though we are surrounded by dozens of people. SO WHY CANT WE JUST SAY IT?

Humans are so afraid to look into each other's eyes and say, "I am unhappy, I am broken, I am hopeless and weak." We have been accustomed to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with unworthiness, difference with disorder, as if these feelings are contagious, as if doubt is something not to be felt but to feared.

Well, I say screw all of that. Screw forced smiles and polite handshakes and "I AM FINE, THANK YOU"S. Screw the fear of crying in public place, to hell with fake chipper voice. To feel everything and to feel it all openly. WE ARE NOT METALS. WE ARE FLESHES AND BONES. We can be torn into pieces. Our boiled blood flows trough our cold, humid hands. We are complex and beautiful and we should NEVER HIDE OUR HUMAN PARTS."

Maybe, this is why.


9 Deadly Words Used by Women

  1. FINE : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
  2. FIVE MINUTES : If she is getting dressed, this could mean HALF AN HOUR. Five minutes is only exactly five minutes, when she has just given you the time to watch football match, before helping her doing something.
  3. NOTHING : This is the calm before the storm. This means something and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
  4. GO AHEAD : This is a DARE, not a permission. DON'T DO IT.
  5. LOUD SIGH : This is actually a word, but a non-verbal one which is commonly misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing there and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to number 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
  6. THAT'S OKAY : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. Thats okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for you mistake.
  7. THANKS : A woman is thankong you, do not question, OR FAINT. Just say "you're welcome". This is true, UNLESS, she says 'thanks a lot.". That is pure sarcasm and she definetly is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say "you're welcome". That will bring you to "whatever."
  8. WHATEVER : Is a woman's way of saying F-YOU.
  9. DONT WORRY ABOUT IT, I GOT IT : Another very dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in the man asking "What's wrong?" For the woman's response refer to number 3.
Stay cool,

Bintang, I miss you.

    Bintang, how are you doing? Jadi dibawa ke Jerman nggak ya kamu? I hope I'll see you again, someday :-)


This pic is so touching :(

The homeless guy cant even take care of himself, but he opens himself to dog :(


"I hate our generation. Everyone either cares too much or too little. There's so much nonesense and pointless drama. Blame is being thrown around. "I love you" is becoming meaningless as saying "and" or "the". What happened to the world? We got caught up in growing up too fast. We all did."

-just sparkle in the sand

I’m afraid of 13 out of 69 common fears

Cross out the things you’re afraid of and put you’re score at the top.
  1. the dark
  2. staying single forever
  3. being a parent
  4. giving birth
  5. being myself in front of others
  6. open spaces
  7. closed spaces
  8. heights
  9. dogs
  10. birds
  11. fish
  12. spiders
  13. flowers or other plants
  14. being touched
  15. fire
  16. deep water
  17. snakes
  18. silk
  19. the ocean
  20. failure
  21. success
  22. thunder/lightning
  23. frogs/toads
  24. my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
  25. boyfriends/girlfriends mom  
  26. rats
  27. jumping from high places
  28. snow
  29. rain
  30. wind
  31. crossing hanging bridges
  32. death
  33. heaven
  34. being robbed
  35. falling
  36. clowns
  37. dolls
  38. large crowds of people
  39. men
  40. women
  41. having great responsibilities
  42. doctors, including dentists
  43. tornadoes
  44. hurricanes
  45. incurable diseases
  46. sharks
  47. friday the 13th
  48. ghosts
  49. poverty
  50. halloween
  51. school
  52. trains
  53. odd numbers
  54. even numbers
  55. being alone
  56. becoming blind
  57. becoming deaf
  58. growing up
  59. creepy noises in the night
  60. bee stings
  61. not accomplishing my dreams/goals
  62. needles
  63. blood
  64. dinosaurs
  65. the welcome mat
  66. high speed
  67. throwing up
  68. Falling in love
  69. super secrets
If you repost this, it’s been requested that you title it “I’m afraid of _ out of 69 common fears”
If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liar

Something about my room


Are you happy with your life?

You know somehow sometime in our life we will come to the point where we ask this to ourself, are you happy with your life and how it goes?

Well. Maybe im getting my turn now.

How I come to this question, i dont know. But everytime i wake up in the morning, nothing excites me, everytime i go to campus, nothing interests me, everytime i go back to my flat, i finally come again to this room filled with mess.

I finally realise, when you try to please others, you end up unpleasing yourself. How i've been trying to fulfill people's expectation about me. Me the smart girl, me the politic-minded girl, me who-wants-to-be-journalist, me who likes to read book about war, conflicts, and terrorism, me the critical minded girl, me who makes good writings. Now what i get is me-who-dont-even-know-what-I-want-for-my-self. 

In fact,
I am NOT that smart.
I am NOT a politic minded girl, I am FED UP with it.
I do NOT want to be a journalist. I DONT LIKE WRITING.
I do NOT like reading books about war, conflicts, and terrorism. I'd rather read magazines or novels.
I am NOT critical. I dont even care about issues around me.

Now if you ask me again whether i am happy with my life.

It's kinda hard to decide. I'm standing right in the middle of the line. Why? Well you know you've tried so hard and put so much effort until you have what you're having right now. You've sacrificed a lot to be the person you are right now. But the person you are right now, is just not the person you want to be. Plus, it's even more sad when you know you've had them already, and its kind of pity to let it all go.

Yet people will say that i should be grateful for what I have right now. Like everything i've been through, everything i've had, everything i have achieved, many people in this world simply dont have what I have now, many things that people envy me for. You know what? Fvck with that, i dont want to be grateful! Why should I? You should realise that there are many things in this big big world that people take for granted, which i dont have! So to put it simple, we are equal. Now say it again that I should be grateful?

At least I am still breathing, living my complex life, contently.
Maybe its your time to ask yourself, are you happy with your current life?

Stay cool,